(to be read just before Camping # 2)
You run through the grass
"Spin me Mummy' you shout
I twirl you around
head back, smiling
You wear butterfly wings
in the nature of the field
Our van witnessing our joy
as we dance our way
through the campsite meadow
We become one when we camp
Just each other for company
And the details of the everyday
We return home
Exhausted from adventures
And planning new ones.
I’m functioning at 30% today
My head feels back to front and my body the wrong way
We’re at the fountains in the park
First time of the year
A sign for summer to be here
I watch a parent as he runs around with his children, shrieking with them, laughing with them, spraying them with water to their delight
Guilt washes over me as I’m not feeling quite right
Heavy eyes still not quite open
As the day began early with you chattering away in my ear
Bouncing into bed with a cheer
My expectations of the fountains set too high
Hoping it would buy me a bit of time to rest and do my best after a busy week
To sit and just be without doing things constantly
But you want to play and of course you do so off we go into the unknown of the fountains at the start of summertime.
Am I nearly 5 yet mummy?
Mum I’m 5 soon
Mum I’m 4 and a half
Actually I’m 4 and three quarters
Mum is my birthday in 6 weeks?
It must be 5 weeks now
Is it 4 now mummy?
Mum my birthday is soon isn't it?
On my next birthday will I definitely be 5?
I won’t be 4 anymore soon mummy
Mum did you know 5 is actually older than 6?
Mum is 5 older than 100?
Will I get a ticket from the queen?
Mummy when will I be older than you?
Mum I’m nearly 5 now aren’t I mum?
Will my birthday always be in July?
Mum most of my friends are 5 and that’s not fair
Mum I want to be older than they are
Mum some of my friends say they’re 6
Mummy when will I be 6?